Say No To Chips: The Desire To Stress Eat. / by Paluna Santamaria

Photo By Dahlia Katz of Patricia Allison in  IMissYou

Photo By Dahlia Katz of Patricia Allison in IMissYou

Me again. The girl who can’t get enough Tune-In.

I’m 2 days away from my show IMissYou opening in Toronto. It’s a piece that I’ve been working on for over a year now. To say I’m stressed out would be an under statement. You can read a full post about my show anxiety here.

For the sake of this being a Tune-In Blog, let's stick to the topic of eating- Every time an email comes in, my anxiety spikes. It’s not all bad news, but it could be. Producing and starring in my own show and creation is stressful. All I want to do is shove bags and bags of chips in my mouth. That would make it all better, right? Salty salty chips. Crunchy chiiiiiips. Mmmmmmmm….  BUT no.

In times like this, when I’ve put weeks and weeks of work into a single moment like going into a weightlifting competition or a show, I need my self confidence to be high. And by this, I don’t mean that I need to be skinny or lean. It’s more than that. I need to feel FULL OF ENERGY and know that as I stand there ready to go on that I made the healthy choice. That I stood up for my body and I fuelled it correctly. When I’m eating clean and my macros are well fitted to my lifestyle, I find that strawberries CAN be a rewarding snack and that I don’t need the chips. Strawberries leave me feeling happy and good while chips sabotage me not only on a physical level (leaving me feeling bloated and crappy) but also on a psychological level. On a self confidence level. I know that while there is a time and place for chips, standing up for myself and my over all health IS the most rewarding.